I absolutely hate those people that seem to have everything figured out. (You know the type I'm talking about) they go to college and know EXACTLY what they are going to major in, get married, have a kid, and still go to school, and manage to have a life on top of everything. Or there are those that get to live off of Mommy & Daddy's money and everything is figured out for them. This hate monster got fired up over a conversation I overheard at Taco Bandido last night that went something like this....
Person #1- "Hey!....How is Rebecca doing? I haven't seen her since we graduated high school."
Person #2- "Oh she is doing great. Her and her husband are both finishing their Masters degrees at BYU, and they are expecting their first kid in a few weeks."
Me thinking to myself- (HOLY S***! How in the heck are they still married!!? I know for a fact being a full time student would add a little...no a lot of stress in my life, plus being a hormonal basket case would be the breaking point. And a Masters degree?....COME ON!, I couldn't even figure out what I wanted to major in for my stupid Associates degree let alone 8-12 more years of school.) Needless to say, I rolled my eyes and was a little peeved at this couple I didn't even know.
The two men visited a little longer, but I lost track of the conversation due to the jumble of chaos that was enveloping my brain.
I am a person that thrives on goals. I like having things planned out to work towards, and I'm sure most of us are like this. When I hit high school my goal was to graduate. After graduation, it was attend college. I had no clue what I was going to do at college, but everyone around me told me it was what I needed to do, so I just went along with it. I loved college life. Hated classes, but the atmosphere was exciting, busy, and full of friends. I hit college and my next goal was an associates degree. I was thinking a mission would be in line next, but a certain boy came along that set my eternity in motion. Then of course my goal was the wedding and getting everything planned! It was the most exciting time of my life! (If some of you that are reading this are not married, I strongly encourage you to do it!)
Marriage is the best thing that has happened to me. I don't know how I could have gotten through these last two years without Case by my side. After the wedding excitement was over, I figured I'd go back to school. Everyone kept asking me when I was starting back up, so I just assumed I had to go. I registered for online classes, and instantly hated life. Casey asked me if I was going to school for me, or for somebody else. It was that moment I realized I wasn't making myself happy. I was doing it to please other people. I didn't enroll in classes after that, and instantly felt like the world was judging me.
I guess the reason I'm writing this post is to stand up for myself. I am happy being a clogging teacher, and doing a little bit of photography here and there. (By the way, if you think my photography isn't the best, it's not. But practice makes perfect and I'll keep practicing until I get better. I appreciate constructive criticism, but certain people need to keep their opinions to themselves) If my husband died tomorrow I am completely capable of going out and getting a job in Burley, Idaho. True, it may not be a money maker, but I'm not the type of girl who wants to live in a $500,000 house and drive ridiculous vehicles, and go shop at the buckle every day. I'll manage, because I'm strong, and was raised right by parent's that taught me the meaning of the word "work."
So this is to all of you that think I'm stupid for not getting a bachelors degree. Turns out, school isn't for me. But I can guarantee that I am going to be better off than half of you out there with your fancy pieces of paper and student loans to pay off. I am doing what makes me happy. That is right...ME and no one can take that away from me!
